He has only been gone a few hours, and it already hurts so much. Sometimes I find it hard to imagine how I will last 2 months alone.

I think that I have cried enough tears for a life time, and yet I still find my eyes watering, making it difficult to see.

I guess I could try to be optimistic. Only 58 days until he is back.

so many things... its hard to put them to words.

this world has recently given up one of the coolest younger brothers anyone could have. i really felt that andrew was like a brother to me, even though i didn't see him as often as i liked. but i'm sure he is in a better place now.

i am not religious, i cannot pray to a god i do not believe in, but i can still pray to their family. i pray that they have the strength to move on in this hard time.

change sucks. losing people, others moving away. i dont like it. i like my safety, my security. change is not welcomed easily into my life. i resist, as i am with my fiance leaving me.

i dont want him to go, deep down i really dont. yeah i want him to be happy, but part of me still has that selfish streak, where i don't want anyone else to have him for any length of time. hes mine.

hmmm... it sucks. everything right now. i just hope i have the strength to help those around me.

jayna

sniff sniff *wipes a tear away* i can't believe its finally over.

13 years of public education... all done (well... ignore the exams)

i feel so old.

I love summer, I really do, it's just that I hate the mosquitos.   they really drive me insane, especially when i have a massive bite on my index finger...

randomness for today

love jayna

je t'adore

hehe everything is good (if you ignore the fact that all my exams are next week, and the week after)

But seriously, I am feeling fairly good-ish about my image, i must say that i looked pretty damn good today and i'm just happy in general. things are going awesome! with boy, mother relations are so-so, work is pretty good... nothing to complain about  (again ... ignore exams, maybe if we don't think about them, they'll go away)

so yeah... hope everyone else is awesome, supberb, and all that jazz

jayna